weird
Thursday, 19 July 2007
have u guys ever have this feeling?? a feeling where u feel tat whatever things u do r a illusion?? a feeling where u r pushed down, stomp, crushed and teared apart?? for nth i had been going through tat.. there is no stress in anything i do, i'm more of a happy go lucky guy than a hardworking one yet this is happening.. walking on e street halfway n i would get a headache, at nite for no reason i would get a nose bleed, feeling giddy while i'm standing still or sitting still... have this feeling of someone watching or speaking to me even through there no one close by.. unable to go through a nite without having a dream tat will wake me up n yet can't remember it when i woke up.. i wonder wat i'm doing half e time, unable to continue my concentration for more than 3 mins before i starts feeling weird all over... i gt this crazy feeling which, well, i'm quite sure of it, n tat is tat i will gt a nervous breakdown soon.. i don't noe wat is causing it but some of my friends had say i could be for my hate towards my father.. i had seems to have lost all motivation to do things, all feelings tat controlled me before seems to have gone, there seems to have nth tat interests me at all... i'm sporting a emo hairstyle but i truly dun wish to become one of them.. i dun noe wat will happen to me nor will i noe wat i will become.. all i noe is tat i'm juz living life now like it's a rule of a game, passing birthday juz so note to myself tat it's one step closer towards death, doing things juz so tat my time remaining is passing faster....
~(00:27)
