Dark... so dark.. it's juz so dark...
Friday 28 March 2008
Met up with Raymond today to buy my camera bag, finally brought a good bag.. A Lowepro stealth reporter D400 AW.. Not the bag i wanted first but still it's a great bag, not to mention it's a bigger than the D300 AW. After buying the bag went on to meet up with Mr.Sim for the fashion show at Bishan which is kinda a hard show to take. Too much background that causes problems. zzz... After the show gone with Mr.Sim and ray for a break and chat up abt photography stuffs...
Reach home, play game for a while when i suddenly decided to ask my mother abt my father's side family history.. a history that thought i already knew a long time ago but still not a completed knowledge of it. This request had been asked for hundreds of times and similarly been refused all the times with all the time the reason being that she dun wan to destroy any faith or good thought i might retained for my father and that i might not be able to handle the truth being slap right into my face...
However for some reason she backed down today.. My mother finally decided to tell me every truth and detail of my father's side family.. form 11 plus p.m we speak all the way till 2.35am, the feeling of having yr whole memory dug out, refreshed, add in new info and then rerun was already something hard enough to take in while having a straight face of no emotions, then the hard truth of all my father's actions, his side of family responses, the things they all done before and lastly the final action that caused my mum to divorce him.. it all gone slamming towards my head and that kind of feeling of being throwed down a cliff repeatly for that whole 3 hours...
I'm already used to hating my father.. it's no new thing for me.. but with the lastest facts all suddenly pushed right into my brain, i juz can't seems to take it in.. the words from my mother for the whole 3 hour plus seems to be running though my head like a CD on repeat mode.. the facts of it all is juz too much for me.. i used to thought of my father like he is the devil.... but after my mother's story.. the past thought of my father now seems like a pure hearted angel.. maybe the years of my family problems had finally taken it's toll on me.. maybe i juz can't take it any longer... till the day i'm finally over this.. bye
~(10:57)
Yawnz....
Tuesday 25 March 2008
YEAH!!! finally school holiday for 3 whole weeks!! WOHH!!! NO MORE EUNOS!!! sounds nice huh... those o lvl dudes who had been living though their whole 3 months or so holiday will noe tat this sux..
juz barely half a week into the holiday and i'm feeling all bored up and nth to do at all.. the laziness that i usually have in my body juz sapped away and i feel so bored and out of activity to do.. tried finding work but for some reason all the companies decided to go for the full timers and not the part timers any longer.. packer are all out and clerks are worse.. not one ad in the whole classified.. mushrooms and ork trees are now starting to grow on my head again juz like the previous december holiday..
speaking of jobs.. i do had one together with raymond.. one day/night.. a photograhy job at M.O.S.. but the person tat hired us haven't even tell us the time or even the date for it.. crossing my finger hoping it's soon man.. plus tat ray very "auto" sia.. got job interview at sentosa nv ask me and vic go.. sobsob..
so anyone who have any info abt open job spaces that needs part time working pls tell me.. i dun wan to rot at home and grow mushrooms.. bb
~(11:56)
BUSTED... sian...
Tuesday 11 March 2008
yo.. i'm finally back WAHAHAHA!!! dun worry man.. with a slight and rare chance u might suddenly see this blog come back to life again ^^..
today kinda normal lah.. see Raymond suffer in pain due to his back problem, make fun of yao rong through the phone with vic, forgot to go fujiflim take back cam, have someone tat i didn't see give me $50 (^^ this weeks lots of money ^^) and finally end it up with the best part of it.. spend $50 all on MANGA!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! But i not so siao till really spend $50 on manga lah.. i drag victor along with me and so the total is Me:$38.80, Vic:$18.. so we can get the special $50 30% discount on Tenchi ^^
First book: Full Metal Panic #3
Second and third: Chrome Breaker #1,2
Fourth : Omamori Himari #1
Fifth book : Galaxy Angel #1
The above books all are brought at Tenchi.. one last book was brought at the "auntie" shop : The gangster and the four eyed gal. So total up is well... $44.30!!! WAHAHAHA kk... gtg.. tommorow got test and need to prepare to go take camara from fuji before getting scold by Mr.sim.. bb
~(08:23)
