Wednesday 14 January 2009

Gone past these 2 weeks seeing different emotions on people around me.. sadness, angry, happiness and all kinda different feelings... Seeing those 'O' lvl people getting theirs result, surprised and joyful is a emotion which thankfully is something i see with majority of my friends.. sadness and shock.. something which i also saw in a few of my friends.. some due to ite results.. some 'O' lvl..


The worst emotion i saw will be my mother.. the look on her face when my sis is being send to hospital.. that look i haven't saw for the past 4 or 5 years.. it makes me wonder.. i often say that life is a game where those gods look at us for entertainment.. they love to see us struggle.. see how we live when our chips are down and with everything against us.. and it's up to us to show them a good show and struggle our way up all the way to the very top..


I had never ever believed in fate.. i only believed in my strength.. my knowledge and how i used both to get my objective.. and yet... when i saw these thing happens... i wonder.. if there really is fate.. if there's really such a thing what is it controlling?

Is fate controlling everything tat had happened? like a couple coming together or two car crashing onto each other? Or is it like virus? Controlling what type of sickness you will have? Or what some people says.. Fate is when a person gets to know another person whom they had never met b4.. Or is fate something you are trying to archive like what one of my friend said :"I'm never ever going to have a result because it's fate"?

Your life, your control that's what I'm still all about.. So what's "fate" then? A action in God's game to either mess up or spice up your life? Or a escape from reality? Why use the word "fate" when perhaps it's truly your own fault to begin with? Your own fault blame it on your self.. don't blame the heaven the earth and even something which might not even be there..

Or is it tat hard to admit that you did not meet the grade, did something or that's it's your fault? Is it that hard to be truthful to yourself that you have to use "fate" to accept it? Maybe something too good happens to you and you just can't accept it all of a sudden?

Enough of me writting on and on and on and on.. Will write in my next post asap.. lol...b

~(08:07)


more chivas!!! MORE!!! WAHAHAH!!!!
Thursday 1 January 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

First post in one week which was rushing everywhere for some sorta reasons.. the past events are worth mention but it's so far back i decided not too.. lazy lah.. lol....

31st Dec 2008->last day of 2008!!! WOHHHH!!!!!

Gone to pub today despite afew people deciding to turn their backs on us.. dudes.. if you wanna do tat at least give a warning earlier on ya? anyway.. since the whole group of me, yap, vic and alfred was going to stay till early morning we deicded to ton the night there since that pub is owned by his family while the trio of hiang, aloy and quack went home earlier.. quack.. .thxs huh.. thxs..

The party started nice and slow in a own time own traget pace where you just drink when you wan to till at abt 9 where we decided to have fun and started a punishment game which is bloody gay!!!

The game is blackjack with the rules set as this:
Gay rule No.1: Whoever that is the banker will have to drink the number of loses he gotten.. so let's say the banker have a 17 while all the other have higher amount of points but not busted yet.. and the people count without the banker is 7... the banker will have to drink 7 cups of Chivas as a punishment!!
Gay rule No.2: If the banker gets a blackjack everyone who didn't get a blackjack will have to drink one cup and if the banker have 5 cards combo without busting or if he gets double Ace, we will have to drink 2 cups. If the others get 5 cards, blackjack or double Ace the banker will have to drink the equal amount of drinks as written..
Gay rule No.3: Anyone who got busted will have to drink one cup of Chivas as a punishment unless the banker got busted as well.. which he will then have to drink the number of people playing minus those who got busted as well..
Gay rule No.4: well.. no really a rule but something that's already known.. this game is set in a way where the banker will suffer and the other will be safe.. unless that dude so damn lucky lah..
Rule No.5: The banker will be changed after every set.. so that the chance of somebody getting drunk early in the night will not happen so fast..


So.. with these rules set we started the game which have a lot of cheating and alot of saboing different bankers and i have freaking lousy luck of the damn day.. thst blackjack game dun have the chance of 'running away' if you have a card count of 16 or 15.. which happens to be the count i always get while i'm a banker.. and thus.. this game which ends after me being a banker for 3 rounds and with around 8 people playing per round.. the total punishment i had to take : 18 cups of Chivas which i drank down without mixer.. Adding in the amount of Chivas which i drank earlier which is abt 15+ cups i drank abt 30+ cups of Chivas.. damn smart.. made me feel like i'm walking on air for a whole 30 min.. should had drank less before the punishment game.. X.X

The game ended at 11.30.. so we continue to play some pool at the pool table which is right inside the room we booked!!! nice!!! all this happened while there's another group who shared room with us singing karaoke.. DAMN!!! THOSE LOSER SANG LIKE BANSHEE!!! IN FACT I HEARD BANSHEE SANG BETTER!!! DAMN!! IN FACT WEI ZHI SOUND SO MUCH BETTER THEN THEM!!!! CAN'T SING DUN SING LAH!!!*^&!!*^@!&!!! to give some credit.. there where 5 people out of their whole group of 20 that sang really well.. the others i just hoped throughout the night that the machine will break down.. or better still!! Make them lose their voices!!! Still the wise didn't cam true and we suffer on till abt 3 in the morning where they are tired out and gone home.. ABOUT TIME TOO DAMN IT!!!

We then continue to play pool and drink till noon at new year day... Total count of drink that day.. i drank abt 1/7 of the whole bottle of Chivas.. 3 cups of vodka which was given to me by some dude i was talking to at the pub.. 3 cups of hennessey (spelling) from the same dude, 2 cups of XO free from alfred's mother and 2 cups of martell.. damn... lucky no liver burn.. maybe already have just didn't know..

we left the pub at 12 after alfred's mother woke up and i reached home at abt 1.. bath then falls onto the bed like i haven't slept for days.. however i was woken up one hour ltr because my grandmother came.. chat with her for one hour then goes back to sleep... then my uncle came two hours ltr.. chat with the group of another hour then sleep again... then my auntie came one hour ltr but i was way too far into the dreamland to be woken up again.. very luckily.. update ends here so tata ^^



look.. i know you, my family members and my mother relatives and some of my adult friends, cares since i grew up without a father and with my mother having to give most of her time to my sis.. i appreciate this care and concern you people have for me but i'm able to hold it by myself.. i had been through it for these past 10 or so years and i had already knew how to stand by myself in this cruel world ever since i was still in pri sch.. i know wat's right and wat's wrong and i will nv let history repeat itself nor will i let myself see my closes ones fall in grief ever again!! Just let me have more of that trust you had in me since young and i will show you a result that's great.. let me stand by my own and let those worries flow away so that whenever i see you, you will be having less worry. let me go by my own..

~(06:20)