Wednesday, 14 January 2009
Gone past these 2 weeks seeing different emotions on people around me.. sadness, angry, happiness and all kinda different feelings... Seeing those 'O' lvl people getting theirs result, surprised and joyful is a emotion which thankfully is something i see with majority of my friends.. sadness and shock.. something which i also saw in a few of my friends.. some due to ite results.. some 'O' lvl..
The worst emotion i saw will be my mother.. the look on her face when my sis is being send to hospital.. that look i haven't saw for the past 4 or 5 years.. it makes me wonder.. i often say that life is a game where those gods look at us for entertainment.. they love to see us struggle.. see how we live when our chips are down and with everything against us.. and it's up to us to show them a good show and struggle our way up all the way to the very top..
I had never ever believed in fate.. i only believed in my strength.. my knowledge and how i used both to get my objective.. and yet... when i saw these thing happens... i wonder.. if there really is fate.. if there's really such a thing what is it controlling?
Is fate controlling everything tat had happened? like a couple coming together or two car crashing onto each other? Or is it like virus? Controlling what type of sickness you will have? Or what some people says.. Fate is when a person gets to know another person whom they had never met b4.. Or is fate something you are trying to archive like what one of my friend said :"I'm never ever going to have a result because it's fate"?
Your life, your control that's what I'm still all about.. So what's "fate" then? A action in God's game to either mess up or spice up your life? Or a escape from reality? Why use the word "fate" when perhaps it's truly your own fault to begin with? Your own fault blame it on your self.. don't blame the heaven the earth and even something which might not even be there..
Or is it tat hard to admit that you did not meet the grade, did something or that's it's your fault? Is it that hard to be truthful to yourself that you have to use "fate" to accept it? Maybe something too good happens to you and you just can't accept it all of a sudden?
Enough of me writting on and on and on and on.. Will write in my next post asap.. lol...b
~(08:07)
