Sunday, 24 May 2009
omg so long nv post le... although i'm currently tired and sleepy i felt like i should at least write down one day worth of life experiance in what i consider to be bz meaningful week. Plus if i dun write this post i would have owe shari two posts><.. told her i would be writing about her at my blog twice le haha i shall start at the beginning of the week at Monday..
Felt my old shelf being back for somewhat the first time in poly.. feeling totally emotional, when someone was saying a joke i would actually laugh all the way like a mad man, totally unstoppable and i keep turning sad and angry for nothing o.O lol.. come Tuesday.. the full force of it finally came. It's what i considered to be a full force mood swing.. I started the day really great. Was feeling fine and happy. Totally different from Monday.
Then it started.. I gotten sad all of a sudden and in the middle of lunch break, went out towards a empty field, and shouted!! Just a nice big "AHHHH!!!!". A real stupid move as about six or seven student happened to be walking past the field and they were staring a me like they had seen a mad man ><''!!! omg.. so embarrassing.. that shout however, didn't managed to stop my mood swing.. went to class and hear lectures then all of a sudden i feel like punching somebody.. OUT OF NOWHERE!!! i just suddenly feel like punching somebody!!! anybody.. shit... took out my laptop, lend some lecture notes from Naz and started writing out the stuff like a mad man.. type, type and type.. my frustration finally got slightly melt down.. kept the laptop then started to really listen to the class.. after the class however.. my feeling was still at the peak.. told myself to clam down.. totally useless ><.. Finally i asked Naz to hold up my maths textbook, concentrated strength inside my arm and released out a moderate strength punch onto the book!! the feeling right after doing that was totally shiok!!! However i must apologise to Naz and anyone that seen me in this "siao" mode that two days.. it's totally random and out of no reason at all.. sorry.
Wed, went to play tennis with JH, Shari, Syafiqah, Xi Hui (I SPELT YOUR NAME CORRECTLY!!! WOOT!!! lol), Shi Ya, Ming Yang, Paul and Sam. Also have to say sorry to all of you that I organize this tennis but didn't go look into it further, asking if the court would be used and all.. We played for 20 mins + because of the earlier booking by the tennis club and had to leave. I felt very disgusted by the attitude of NYP in a sense that we cannot borrow basketball, soccer, tennis ball etc. etc. as they are only lendable to people that are in those club themselves. Hello!!! if they are in those club themselves isn't it a common sense that they might have those equipments themselves? Save for a small group of people. If you are scared that some people might damage/ steal those things that make them leave their student card before lending it to them! Why so kiasu? Due to the failed try of lending basketball, me, Shari and JH went running at the track field while Paul and Ming Yang went to their CCA and the rest went back home. sorry again to you all!!! JH went around the field for a good six or seven round while the out of shape me went only about 1 and a half ><.. so out of shaped that i even felt like vomiting later and did vomit!! damn.. Shari was troubled with her relationship problems and although i wished to help getting her moods up, i just couldn't find the words to do it.. felt really useless as a friend to be unable to even say something to cheer her up... Went with them to Kofu to makan and drink water.. Chat about our personal secrets and found two people with a really deep background. In the middle of the chat.. I accidentally smack my drink towards me causing my pants to be totally wet.. lucky i brough extras.. lol..
Thurs, a rather smooth day that i noted to myself that the mood swinging had ended. However Sam became the bad mood one and he also screamed just like i did, only he did it inside a empty toliet while what i did was making a fool out of myself in public >< haha. Friday, Nearly late for lab as i over slept again but luck was on my side and the bus came early, Xi hui helped me print the lab report so i didn't have to worry about it. Thanks!! after C programming class in which i was playing pokemon indigo and reading news over the net 75% of the time, Naz, me and JH(lee not lim) went for Chess club. Naz had juz became the vice-chairman of the international Chess club (Congrats man!!!) and was high on that day over it. Played weiqi for awhile and thought that i might have improved abit, played double international chess with Naz and two other guys, shockingly... Naz lost... omg.. i think it's because too many of my pieces kanna eaten though.. Went back home at around 7 and went swimming.
Sat, Went to the last Alpha course(out of 15) at GMC in the early morning.. When i first when for the course, I seriously felt like i got betrayed by my mother in the sense that i went for the course to support her going since she said she would go if i accompany her but she backed out later, that morning she sounded like she's kinda pissed off at me still sleeping when it should be time i left the house.. got mad and told her that i will remember it inside me that when i finally did something and craved time out for her, she back out suddenly.. felt angry inside me while i travel towards the meeting point with aunt susan (my mother friend, she met her when my sis was still inside the hospital and due to her regular visit they soon become close friends.) Throughout the traveling, tons of people was staring at me with that kinda, wow.. a bloody gangster.. , kinda look.. was still tired so i decided to let myself doze off even though i was standing.. Met aunt suasan up and slept for awhile inside her car, arrive there and started to sleep inside church before it started.. that day was a video recording of the alpha course held at england, although the speaker in the video is a great speaker.. i was tired enough to have slept through the whole course.. felt so damn bad to the people who was concentrating.. At the end, rushed back to amk to change and get ready to go swimming!! on the way towards home.. i felt terrible for speaking to my mother that way.. called her just to say sorry.. Reached home, grab my stuff and rushed off since i'm already late.. Met up with MY, JH and Shari at the YCK mrt although i'm late. That day was the proving for this sentence. :"do not judge a book by it's cover". Since out of JH, me and MY.. only MY is the da ge while JH and i are still small kids.. lol.. Since Shari dun really know how to swim, me, MY and JH went to the adult pool to warm up first. After awhile we went to the middle pool to chit chat for awhile, talking about horny stuff lol.. Then we moved off to the kids pool where there's a waterfall kinda feature that feels just like massage ^^. went off to eat at sumo house later, shari was in a hurry to get back as after eating, walked them towards the MRT/traffic light intercross and said our GBs to MY and Shari then JH accompany to take bus at Amk hub. Chat on the way there then bus came and say bye to him as well. Was so tired that i just fell onto the bed after bathing one more time then just sleep.. till the morning at abt 9.30 when my phone goes off telling me to wake up..
The next day which is today's post would be post tommorow because i'm to tired to continue on.. Sorry haha bb
btw.. stop avioding me.. i'm not a monster, alien or anything like that.. jokes aside, if your negative abt it.. then so be it.. We are still friends alright?
~(07:38)
