Friday, 8 May 2009
Today, one of my friend from church suddenly came up to me and ask me when will i start acting my own age!! It got me thinking.. I'm 19 this year, I spend 2 years in ITE purely used to sort emotions out and for play. I spend 4 years in secondary sch being a emo kid whose forever angry for personal reasons. SO.. Let's cut out 16 years of my previous life from secondary sch onwards.
Army awaits me in 2 and a half year time. I have long considered my all my kids years before sec sch as wasted.. Being completely clueless about things and basically sleep a good 12 years of my life away...
Sec sch was a turning point.. my feeling was slowly tied up there and i'm finally becoming more normal then it came, N lvl.. A exam I had never thought about passing.. in fact i planned to go to ITE all the way from the start!! I didn't plan for promotion towards sec 5 N(a).. I planned for two years of rest (funny that it came out of a slacker mouth lol)..
ITE was one of my best years.. My emotions are finally being placed correctly and i gradually stop getting angry for nothing.. however.. I know that my maturity level had fell alot during that fruitful two years.. I did things that are purely retarded, things that a person of my age shouldn't had done.. I'm acting without thinking and I'm completely wayward..
Come to the NYP first few months.. Before going in, I spend three whole months trying to get myself on the correct mindset.. To grow up before going in.. I however onli managed to get it up to a level which i consider is somewhere in my sec 2 level..
Fast forward to today.. I'm still immature.. Doing things which are negative for me proves it.. I'm far from the level which i am at sec 4.. How i act now would seems different towards certain people.. however i'm still me and being immature is still me haha.. After thinking about the time left which i can still have senseless fun which is 2 years, I'm treasuring the time left there for me.. University is a outside thought.. the percentage of me going in is way too far and plans to study master would most likely have to be private, a part time study while i work..
Embrace the time left, the treasure within depends on how you acts and how things had been going though.
~(07:04)
