Tuesday 28 July 2009

AH! The dead blog is coming alive for a t least this few days with a new post!! are you happy readers?? ^^ However.. Warning first, for those people who strongly belives that no matter what your parents do wrong, they are still your parents and you shouldn't scold them. Well. This is not a post you should see.

Seriously though this week i realised a few of the things that I've been changing in my brain since the April "honeymoon" period of poly life. My goals and wishes had been forced to be pushed aside since god had given me a responsibility since young which I will have to completed so that my family wouldn't have to suffer the lingering effect of my father's departing "gift".

Wishful thinking like going to university, having a dream job is all out of the window, getting out of poly with a good enough GPA to show that I've learned something is all that I shall aim for now. Although my father, amazingly, was a planner in life and had given me a university insurance policy which will pay 3 whole years of university fees! wow! He's not useless after all!!

However.. Seeing stress being build up on to my mother... A working life is most likely gotta come first as I struggle through payments in private U.

~(09:08)


Thursday 9 July 2009



since so long never blog le tonight i shall post two!!! wahaha!!! my blog is the most pitiful of all blogs since i only post 77 post in 3 years so far. so must start treating it better and feed it more posts!! eat up!!! haha!!!!

today woke up at abt 10 plus due to that bastard derek sleep over at my place then force me to sleep so late make me wake up with a lousy headache basket!! keep talking make me unable to sleep until 5 in the morning. lucky i can still wake up somehow at 10.

reach nyp at 11 meeting naz at the same old place and tried studying physics which happens to be a waste of time. my mind was filled up with something else instead of the subject which i'm supposed to be studying and well .. .. .. haiz!!! 20% into the brain while the other are all wasted.

the time for bio paper soon came and Naz who was saying how lucky he was today sudden drop his laptop due to a spoilt pole support damn suay la!! tried starting up his laptop when i found out that the only component most likely spoilt was the hard drive meaning all data gone including his MS project. sad sia lucky hecky gave him a extended dateline.

walking towards the interchange today might just be the happiest moment of this week for me lol. went to the cheers there and found a drink i had been hoping to try out... the Jim Beams cola flavor!! it have that bit of chiva taste at the beginning which slowly slowly dissolve away giving me a full taste of the cola. not a bad tasting drink which hardly gave me any alchol "highness" lol. Maybe it's due to the vodka i had drank yesterday night with derek which is very very little lah!!!
<-- the Jim Beam i drank on the way back. still have some left when i got home.
<-- The vodka that had been in my house since new year. Dislike it's taste alot though derek loved it. It's still chivas for me!!!
got home, tried studying to a better effect then at mac with naz and sam but still too little to be significant. hope tmr the paper isn't a killer!!! had been easy papers so far so pls continue!!! haha!!!! let me have a respectable GPA!!!!

~(06:24)



omg!!!! i confirm fucked up my papers le lah!!! knn !! next up is physic paper which i have 0 confidences in!! my lousiest subject put last day humm.. maybe it's a sign from god to start studying instead of just sitting at the table and stare! XD

since the passing of these few weeks, I've been able to somewhat see what the new "me" is like. this week alone was spend on studying, studying and more studying which kinda interrupted my plans but still I've been able to stabilize my new persona which i had struggled to cope with at the beginning. Things like suddenly emo-ing or sudden mood swing should be gone by now hopefully.

haiz.. the emo days in secondary school still hunts me today. Shari said i got the aura of a emo?? omg!! i seriously think I've changed alot since the ITE days where i consider myself as a semi-emo!! if it's looks then in due time it will change if it's my comments on certain things then it shows I haven't change enough yet and if it's the blog skin... lol.. ashamed of saying it out but I'm a big noob in blogskin. this blogskin was the nicest and easiest to set in so i chosen this for the time being! haha!! so give me some time which is about one month or so and you will see a blog skin!!! +)

it has now come to a point where seeing makes me feels happy and saying anything makes me feels like the luckiest guy in the world. JH said before that this wouldn't work and i agreed but i somehow just couldn't end it. think i just kinda sucks at those kinda things..

umn.. to another person. not sure if you are still seeing my blog but if you are being serious and not pulling my leg... i'm seriously sorry i made that relationship seems this way. apology is nothing i know but it's the only thing i can offer.

~(06:02)